Not His Type Of Mate

Ava's POV (Special POV)

I teleported from the wedding venue and appeared in my room, where I slumped on my bed with my hands on my head. I was devastated and confused about everything, as it all seemed like a dream to me, but it was so confusing that I felt like I was going to lose my mind if care wasn't taken. I was supposed to be happy that he could use his legs, that he could walk, and that I wouldn't have to marry a crippled man instead, but hell! I hated him for lying to me, I hated him for deceiving me all these days and seeing my emotions as a game that he could toy with whichever way he wanted.

He did not trust me, he did not believe everything I said to him, he found it hard to see me as his woman, which was why he did all that. Even though I loved him so much and showed it to him, he did not want to believe it was real, maybe I wasn't good enough to be his woman, or maybe he still had his heart with someone else.

"Don't you think he has the right to doubt your feelings toward him? You've done a lot to warrant that treatment, and you know it, Ava. At first, you acted like a bitch when he was ready to give you the world, and when he needed your help, you rejected him like he was a beggar, and then, you frustrated his life, made him miserable, and made him question his destiny for having you as his second chance mate. You brought all these upon yourself and now, you are blaming him for not trusting you? What do you even know about trust for you to talk about it so leniently?" My wolf scolded and questioned me harshly, but I knew she was right. I had done a lot to make Alpha Leo lose his trust in me, but that was only because I was feeling insecure back then too!

"Yes, I know I did wrong, but I've apologized, and he should have forgiven me by now. He doesn't trust me now, and he wants to marry me, is that how we are going to continue our marriage? A marriage without trust? How will that survive?" I asked, as that was my biggest fear. What would happen to us after our marriage if he continued to find it difficult to trust me? "That's things of the past now, Ava. Alpha Leo trusts you now, and I can see that. He wouldn't stand up to tell you the truth if he still doesn't trust you." She replied, and my eyes twitched. I wish what she said could be right, but I knew it wasn't because I was sure that Alpha Leo still did not love me or trust me enough, as my wolf was claiming. I let out a deep breath and lay in bed, I had to take my mind off the whole thing and try to think of what to do next.

Laying in the bed, I could feel him trying to connect to me, but I rejected the mind link, and tears rolled down my eyes. I wasn't in the mood to speak to him, as the fear of never being loved by him was slowly eating me up from inside. I remember the day I first saw him, I was still a kid back then and he saved me, and since then, I have fallen in love with him and wanted to be his woman. It was that day that I prayed to the moon goddess that if I was going to have a mate later in life, I wanted him to be Alpha Leo or someone like Alpha Leo because he was the perfect example of a man I wanted in my life, and a few years later, I met him again, and I realized he was my mate. I realized when I met him again that he was my mate, which pulled my revenge plan backward. Many paragraphs are missing. Read the complete book on J o-b n-l b. c (o) m. I had returned to kill him and everyone around him, but when I figured out that my revenge subject was him, I felt weak in the knees and couldn't go on with my plans.

I started watching him from then on without him noticing, and I felt sad when I realized he was in love with someone else and might never be mine, unknowing to me then that the moon goddess had other plans in stock for us.

The memories put tears in my eyes, and I couldn't help but release them. I grabbed my pillow and held it tight as I cried out my pains like there was no other day. I cried in pain alone in my room as many more memories flooded my brain, making me even more heartbroken than I already was. Everything went downhill the day I confessed to him, and he never asked to see me since then. I waited for him for several days, I waited in my house, in front of his mansion, and kept my phone with me in case he called my line or texted me, but nothing came in. I went to spy on him numerous times, but he was happier without me, and I felt my heart break into pieces. It was harsh on me, too hard for me to accept, and I had to run away, thinking I would get over him, even though it was so hard that it felt like I was going to die.

That was why it came as a big shock to me when he suddenly showed up a few weeks ago to tell me that we were mates. I could swear that day was my happiest day, and I wished to throw myself into his embrace right then. It took me all my willpower to be able to restrain myself from doing that, and when I remembered how he didn't care about me for the past four years, my anger toward him surged, and I became angry again. I expected him to chase only after me, but he continued to keep his friendship with Nora, torturing me more and making my life even more difficult, but what really put me off was when I saw them kissing each other in his room!

That day shattered me, and I felt broken. I had imagined a lifetime with him, I had hoped that he was starting to love me, and I thought I was going to become his woman, but seeing Nora in his embrace that day made me realize that I still stood no chance between them, and it made me sad, which was why I acted like a bad bitch toward him when he finally started to show me some love and care. I was trying to do it a little, but the excitement got over my head, and I went overboard with it, causing me to send him away from myself again, and that time, he looked as if he would never return to me. I even caught him questioning the moon goddess and telling her to change his mate, which pained me a lot, and I decided to change his mind about me, I decided to show him I cared and loved him a lot, and when I saw that he became crippled and could no longer use his legs, I felt miserable. I felt guilty, thinking everything was my fault, thinking I had finally done the worst thing possible to him, and he would never want to forgive me which was why I apologized so many times but that day, when he screamed so hard in pain, I felt a knife pierced my heart too, and I felt sad that I couldn't take the pains for him. I wished death upon myself for causing him so much pain and agony, it was that day that I decided to stay with him for the rest of my life. I made my decision that day that I would never leave his side what may, and I would always be there for him, I would always make him happy, and I would make sure to relieve him of his pains every time it arose. I had made a lot of plans, but it seemed he still did not trust me. Even after I did my best to make him trust me, it was still too hard for him to believe that I truly cared about him.

"Go to bed, Ava. You should rest your head and think this through." My wolf advised, and I realized it was the best thing to do. My head was starting to ache, and my thoughts were becoming messy. No matter how hard I thought about it, nothing positive was coming to my mind, so I decided to take her advice and I closed my eyes. I relaxed my mind, and before I knew it, I slept off only to wake up a few hours later, and I looked around me, my head felt a lot lighter, I could think straight again and that was when I realized that I had to see Alpha Leo, so I teleported back to his mansion to see him. On getting to his room, I saw him sleeping in his bed with an empty bottle of whiskey in his hand, he looked drunk and messy and the look on his face even while he was sleeping looked very sad and broken. I sucked in a deep breath as I walked toward his bed and sat in it, I had gone too far and my action had hurt him the second time.