Chapter 44 A urgent thing came up to me.
"Did she really did many things for you? Then, you should really should be with her"...
With that, that god woman wants to get up from his lap. However, he soonly grabbed her and rolled on the bed. Now his eight is on top of her. She can't escape from his so easily like that.
He saw her face sinking, but still wanted to tease her.
"Why are you jealous baby girl?", he asked with a mocking voice. She gave him a sad smile and didn't say anything. It obiviously made William unsatisfied. "Say something", he said.
"What do you want me to say? That I want to get everything for myself or to say that I am the only one who deserve everything, just because I have a bad pass life? Uh want do you expect me to say?", once again, she thought to herself that this lap, this body, his cheezy words, not for her. There is still a person, who is just waiting for him. And it is just not her, so she should not steal any people's dream or their private life.
William just kept looking at her in a different gaze. He really felt complicated. He want it. He really want it, but, why is she going further away when she love it. She supposed to enjoy her life.
"Don't you have any other reasons. This reason is kindly not accepted", he said as a mechine. Hoping that she would laugh, but no, he still failed again.
William sighed and asked, "what is the problem? Is you problem that I told you that Lana have did many things for me or, I told you that I am bringing her out?". He have to settle this. I not, she would avoid him and keep this annoying face forever.
"No, it is nothing. It is just that I am not in a good mood. If you don't mind, can I finish my work soon, and go back home?", she really have to change the topic, so he will not talk or ask her about it anymore. "Sure", William answered with a nod.
Even though, she told something else and thought that it ould divert his mind, surely it will not. He understand about her feelings. Of course, a girl need the most attention to herself than anyone. So it is not wrong. "Well, if you don't mind, can I go out now?", she said, as she tried to sneak out from his body.
However, before that, William volunteerily lift up his weight and gave her her way.
"Opps", she came back again and wore back her skirt. "I will give you this shirt tomorrow", she said and went out of his office.
After closing the door behind her, she felt like she is closing a big part from her heart.
A big part that she hoped that everything will be fine and all of it, will just full filled with amazing happiness.
And it is no more. It is not hers. Just not.
There was a tear slipped out of the edge of her eye, but she quickly wiped it and went to her office to do her works.
Back in William's office, he is still looking at the door way where the woman has left. He really felt too empty. The thing that he wanted to most was suddenly dissapeared from nor where.
He looked at the coffee table at the coner, there was a small picture of his mother hanging.
He came near to the photo and took it, "mom... I don't know hat am I doing. I wanted to be happy and just settle with the things, but why is it hard for me? Did I do something? I really don't know, but I hope that everything will be fine. Love you", he put back the photo and got out of the room to his laptop.
He kept typing many random words in his laptop, but nothing make sense, because she surely knows that he is not in a mood to work. His brain is in north, while his heart is in south. Too far way.
He took out his mobile phone and called Lana.
First ring, second ring, and the third... she already picked up the phone call.
"Hey William, why are you calling me? Is there anything else you wanna say pr ask me?", even though her words were fine, there was still a lot of happiness and excitement in her voice. "Urmmm....", he really don't know where to start.
"Urm... Lana... Later..."
"Yeah later, what do you ant me to do? To buy some flowers for you dad?, because I am going there again after too long. So I should not go with my hands free right. Don't worry, I have already booked a flower bouquet for you family". Well this is awkward.
William felt that he is really hurting a person's feeling, but surely he have to do this. Not for Adriana's sake. It is or him, himself. If he shows any interest on her, she might take it serious and go to any extreme level. He really don't want that. "Lana, actually I am so sorry, I don't think I could make it later. An important thing came up to me so, I have to take charge of it. i am so sorry", he said. Finger cross, that she will not take this into her heart.
Lana at the other edge of the phone call was frozen. She really dream about going out with this goda damn man, but now everything will be a joke. She even was too excited and asked Adriana to buy her some clothes. No she felt like a big fat joke.
Tears welled up in her eyes, but didn't burst yet.
"Oh, okay", kept shut her mouth.
William felt too heavy and somehow not good. At least as a friend, he should not do it.