Alpha Nicholas

Alpha Nicholas

I'm livid! I'm so mother fucking Goddam angry I swear I could tear apart this entire room and not even blink an eye. Who the fuck treats anyone like that? Let alone their own blood family, let alone my mate! I just don't understand it. She's so beautiful inside and out, so kind-hearted it's sobering, and yet those worthless pieces of assholes think that it's okay to do that? Well, I can guarantee that it won't happen again. NO FUCKING WAY! Even if she doesn't want to be with me, then I will make sure she gets somewhere safe, hell, I'll hire her a bodyguard for the rest of her life if I need to, but no matter what they don't get to hurt her again.

"Are you ok, Nicky?" Her sweet voice brings me back to the present but she must see more on my face that I don't mean to show because she suddenly shrinks back from me and that one move alone is enough to bring me back to my senses. "No, Bonnie, Please don't do that. My voice is harsh but I try to keep my tone calm and as soft as I can, but I can feel the pressure building up inside of me and I'm not sure how long I can last.

She looks up at me and it's clear that she's unsure of what to do and it's understandable considering her past and how much my body is still shaking. "I'm not going to hurt you, sweetheart. I swear, no matter what, I would never hurt you. I would cut off my own hands before I would ever lay a goddam finger on you!"

"But... aren't you mad at me?" Her voice is small and scared and I fucking hate it. That little fireball that I saw in her earlier, I want to see it again and now! "Why would I be mad at you?" She spends a few seconds looking at me like she can't figure out how I don't already know the answer to that question.

"Because of how I am? Because of the trouble that follows me? Because you decided you wanted me only to find out that I am weak and pathetic and now you either have to reject me or be saddled with a sad excuse of a wolf!" By the time she finishes talking, she's almost shouting but it just has me laughing as I watch that spark of fire relight inside of her eyes. "That's it, just laugh at me. I don't care!" The moment she says those words I instantly realize my mistake. She may say she doesn't care but she does, and that's why she's so upset. That's why she has a look of anger on her face while tears of sadness run down her beautiful cheeks.

I move closer to her and take both of her hands in one of mine, she tries to pull back but I stop her. "I'm sorry, sweetheart. I wasn't laughing at you, I promise. I was just happy that some of that little fireball of yours showed it's face. Even though I'm not sure why I laughed, I promise it wasn't in any bad way." She gives me a doubtful look which is understandable but hopefully, this cute little creature will give me the time to prove my words to her, all of them.

"First off to clear something up, I am not mad at you, not in the slightest. I'm not sure why I would be mad about how you are, but I know that I'm not mad about any trouble that could follow you. If there's any trouble following you then I will deal with it. Now, as for you saying that you are weak and pathetic that does make me a little mad because you are so wrong. From the short time that I've known you I have seen nothing but strength and courage and honesty I'm awed by you." "You barely know me."

"That may be true but I'm your mate and an Alpha and my senses and instincts are up there with the best. And while I may not have spoken to you much since you have been here which by the way is a shame on me, I have still watched you and not once have I seen anything weak."

"As for your family, do you want anything more to do with them?" She tilts her head and I watch as her mind races with thoughts and at the same time I feel her pulse in her wrist pick up. "Breathe, darling." She gives me a gentle smile that makes my heart pound and Storm drool in my head. This is the quietest he's been since we met her, also the nicest he has been to me too, not that I blame him.

Finally, after several seconds, she shakes her head. "I don't, I don't but I may have no choice." I can feel her start to panic so I start to gently run my thumb over the back of her hand hoping to help her. "Why do you say that?" She's starting to look tired and I have a feeling that she's going to need to sleep soon, but I'm hoping that she can tell me a little more first. Am I being selfish? Probably but I can't help myself because deep down there is a part of me that's still shocked that she's being so open with me after how I've treated her, and I'm afraid that when she goes back to sleep she won't want to speak to me anymore.

"The plan was to run away with Lily, but then she met her mate obviously and of course, I'm more than happy for her but the fact is that it stopped that plan and that's ok because it was quickly clear that she's going to be so happy in life but that left me needing to make a new plan which I did. However, that new plan involved me running away while we were on the way home."

"How would you have done that?" I'll give it to her she doesn't give up easily and she thinks she's weak? I'll never understand how she can think that. "We travel as a pack and stop around the halfway mark for food, toilet breaks and to refuel. However, my dad doesn't allow me out of the SUV. Well, he didn't on the way up and I know he would have been the same on the way back.

He'd come up with something to use as an excuse to stop me from eating so I planned to run then but then everything happened with Blue and now he'll know that I was found in the woods and he's going to be furious. Furious that I was away from the pack house and even more so that I've gotten myself put in this place and he's had to stay here waiting for me. The worst thing about it is that when we travel back we are going to be traveling solo and knowing him, he'll make me go into the dinner with them and make me watch them eat so I can suffer even more than I would by sitting in the car and I won't be able to run."

By the time she finishes talking, she's shaking and so am I but while she's shaking from being upset, mines through anger... so much anger! "Have a drink, sweetheart," I pass her the water from the unit beside her and trail my eyes over her while she drinks. She's so beautiful, so so beautiful and tiny and I have been a fucking idiot to think that I could ever live without her. Her long blonde hair looks like it is made from spun gold and all I want to do is run my fingers through it, and while her eyes may look sad now, I know they will be so bright and beautiful once she's happy again and happy again she will be.

"I think you should sleep for a bit now, darling." She sits up straight seeming on edge. "But we're talking and you..." I give her hands a gentle squeeze as she takes a deep breath. "We will talk more when you wake, I promise and you won't be alone while you sleep either." She goes to say something but must change her mind as instead of speaking, she lays back down and slowly closes her eyes.

I don't want to stop talking but she's exhausted and if truth be told I need to get out of here. The last thing I want to do is to leave her but if I don't let out some of my anger soon I can't guarantee that I won't explored in front of her and that just can't happen. "Lottie, where are you baby, girl?" I meant it when I said she wouldn't be alone while she slept but there's a limit to the people I trust to protect her. My daughter may only be 15 but she started training at 5 and it's only ever been me, my brothers, my dad, or my best friend, Tony that have trained her, and it's paid off before the girl can be the devil when she needs to be.

"I'm outside the hospital talking with Uncle Will. Are you ok?"

"Yes, but I need to get out of here. I need to run or something... I don't know what... I just need a little time and Bonnie is sleeping but I won't leave her alone and-"

"I'm on my way. I'll protect her, Dad. I promise!" Thankfully, she interrupted my rambling with the words that I needed to hear and was inside the room in just seconds. Once she's settled and I know my mates safe I head outside only I'm greeted by all of my brothers as they all stand around in shorts and nothing else.

"I heard we're going for a run," Shane says as he gives me a slightly concerned look. I nod as I walk towards them while removing my shirt. "I just need to let off some steam. I appreciate you coming but I'll be fine. I'm sure you have better things to be getting on with."

All of them disagree and insist on coming, the love I feel from them making my heart thud. "Theo has been a nightmare since the ball but he won't tell me why so I'm hoping a run will chill him out because I'm about 4 seconds away from disowning the prick!" Will grunts making us laugh as we head for the woods. Fuck, where would I be without these guys?