Alpha Nicholas

Alpha Nicholas

It's been two days since I brought Bonnie to the doctor and she's still unconscious and I've not left her room. I shower in the ensuite bathroom attached to her room and my brothers, Lily, and my parents bring me anything I need along with endless amounts of food that I don't want. Since the moment the doc left us alone I've felt sick and I'm pretty sure that Storm is feeling the same, only I don't know for sure because he hasn't spoken to me since we got here. Of course, before he went on a silent strike he made sure I knew what he thought. He said that this is all my fault, that if I had accepted my mate the night we met then she wouldn't have been hurt and she wouldn't be here, and as much as I want to deny it I can't, he's right. This is all my fault and the idea of her being hurt because of me feels like a knife to the heart.

"Hey, Dad." Lottie's soft voice takes my attention away from where I've been standing at the window thinking over these last few girls. My brothers and parents have all made it clear that they believe that I'm in the wrong for pushing my mate away, although they still have my back. My daughter, however, is the only one who hasn't had a bad word to say to me, not yet anyway. She has spent most of her time here with me and I don't think she'll ever realize how much it means to me.

"Hey, Baby girl." Her beautiful smile lights up the room as she walks over to me and hugs me tightly."How's she doing?" She looks at a still-unconscious Bonnie with a sad smile. After I refused to leave the room she started getting suspicious and in the end I had to tell her who Bonnie was. She was shocked to discover the truth but not so shocked to hear that I had planned on rejecting her. Lottie knows my reasons and if anyone understands them then it's her but I know that deep down she wishes that I would change my mind and yet she still supports me.

"There's no change. She's still not woken up." I feel her tense before she goes to sit down next to Bonnie and starts whispering to her. After the doctor examined Bonnie, he confirmed what Lexi said about Bonnie receiving a beating the night before we found her. He also told us that there are older bruises on her body, a lot of them, and that she is severely underweight which can only lead me to believe one thing... she's getting abused by someone.

After hearing that all I wanted to do was tear the room apart but I couldn't and I couldn't leave her either so I've had to hold it in while Storm gave me the silent treatment, and I'd be lying if I said that it wasn't getting harder and harder to control. Why would anyone do that to her? I tried not to jump to conclusions and blame any of her family but their reactions to her state have not helped one bit.

Her brother left the packhouse as originally planned and went back to his pack while her father and sister stayed here but have barely been to visit and even when they do come here, her sister does nothing but flirt with me and I swear it's taken all I have not to throw her off my pack lands but I can't. Until I know what's going on I have to let her stay for Bonnie's sake but fuck I wish she was gone already.

"Dad, come sit down." I drag my ass over to Lottie taking the seat next to her already knowing that were about to have a conversation that I don't want. Lottie has this look to her when she's about to tell you things that you don't want to hear even if you need to. She's also incredibly grown up for a 16-year-old girl and while I've brought her up to speak her mind and not back down from anyone, in recent years it's come back to bite me in the ass... often.

"Dad, I know why you've never wanted a mate, I do, I get it but now that you've met her, can't you even consider it? Just look at her she's beautiful and she's got such a good heart you said that yourself."

"Lottie..." If only the girl knew that I'm already thinking everything she just said to me but I've trained myself to think one way for so long that the thought of even considering changing my mind terrifies me. Yes, I'm a big ass 6ft3 Alpha who's terrified of the idea of having a 5ft something mate but It's just how it is and I don't care.

"I know the idea scares you, Dad and I get it, but I've always hated the idea of you being alone. I've always secretly wished that you would find your mate and the bond would be too strong for you to reject her."

"It's not easy, baby girl I assure you." She nods and I can see her trying to understand and I appreciate it. "Please, just think about it, Dad. What Mom did... not every woman will be like her, not every woman will do what she did."

"I know but it's not just that, Lottie, She's 18 years old. I'm 10 years older than her. She's 2 years older than my daughter. Can you imagine having a stepmom who's only 2 years older than you?"

"That doesn't matter, Dad. Age is just a number and as far as I'm concerned if she makes you happy then who cares about how old she is? She's of legal mating age and that's all that matters. Shane is 8 years older than Lily and you don't see it affecting them. I love you, Dad but you need to stop making excuses and only thinking of the negatives and start focusing on what could be, on what you could have."

"When did you become so grown up and put together?" She smiles as she stands up then leans down and places a kiss on my cheek. "I was brought up by one incredible man." She leans in and hugs me before heading for the door. "There's also the little fact that you have refused to leave this room since she came in here. Why is that, Dad?" This girl doesn't miss a thing.

"Just think about what I said, please? I love you." I nod and smile never tired of hearing her tell me she loves me. "I will. I love you too, sweetheart." I watch as she leaves and I spend a few minutes just staring at the door that she just left through but then a strange sensation has me turning my attention back to my mate only I nearly fall off my chair when I'm met with her big brown eyes as she stares at me. "Alpha Nicholas?" Bonnie

I'm not sure what's going on but I'm scared. The last I can remember is Lexi taking over control and heading for the woods then everything turned black and I have no clue why but Lexi either isn't talking to me for some reason or she can't so I can't even ask her to explain this to me. It feels like I've been in darkness for days maybe I'm just dreaming at this point, I honestly haven't got a clue. A few times I thought I could hear a beeping sound and people talking but then the darkness would come back and I'd once again be surrounded by nothing.

I try my best to listen for any kind of sound, just some kind of sign that can explain what's going on when that beeping noise comes back, only this time it's louder than before. "Come on, come on!" I constantly repeat to myself. I want something else to happen anything when I suddenly want to cry when I hear voices, They are faint but they are there. I try to focus on them as much as I can but it is hard. I can feel the darkness trying to pull me back down but I don't want that to happen, not again. "Come on, Bonnie. You can do this!"

Again, I keep repeating those words to myself doing anything I can to stop myself from falling into the darkness once again. I focus on the voices but it sounds like their underwater. Who is that? Where am I?" It feels like forever but finally, the voice starts to get clearer and louder.

"Just think about what I said, please? I love you."

"I will. I love you too, sweetheart."

I know that voice and even if I doubt what my brain is telling me, the the reaction that my body is having to his voice only confirms it. My heart picks up pace and I swear I feel tingles running through my entire body. That's my mate but why is he here? I don't understand what's going on. I feel my heart crack a little when I replay the words that I just heard him say "I love you too, sweetheart." I wonder if that's the girl that he was with at all the ball? Hearing him saying those words to her tears at my heart but maybe that's the reason why he's been running from me, maybe I was right about them both from the start.

I start to wince when I realize that the darkness is fading and the brightness that's slowly greeting me is painful for my eyes. None the less I don't want to fade into the darkness anymore so I use all the energy that I have left and push through, and finally after several seconds of blinking and adjusting my eyes open and I'm met with the sight of my mate, my mate who doesn't want me. What the hell is going on? "Alpha Nicholas?"